Colours Connect Me with Myself

WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN? A lot of you might asked this question to yourself. Being a teenager is hard work. Nobody knows who you really are. They question you (thousands of people asked you) so hard, that you can’t answer anything. A single word doesn’t come from your mouth. Those questions over powered you. Well they over powered me a bit. Those questions people asked you, made you ask yourself.This is the conclusion of all questions that you have to go through: Who are you? It’s as simple as that. But the answer is hard to find.

People may talk like this: You don’t even know yourself. You may start to get defensive, lie to people around you or lie to yourself. How can you put up with something like that? I didn’t know. I DIDN’T KNOW AT ALL.

Sorry, for keep jumping on to something else.

You don’t know how to express. To express yourself as a person, instead of getting caught in this tiring reality. Your dreamscape seem so far away, like those fantasies you have at night. You fall in to this lingering tragic story, to find yourself. Find you, create yourself, in this not-so-welcoming crowd. You don’t recognize that one thing called “freedom of self-expression” You don’t know it at all. I didn’t know that, before. I know it now. How important it is to me.

I know how to self-express for myself. Art help me how. “Colours connect me with myself” that means that colours has help me to find away to be like me. Well this works for me anyways.  Colours connect with me who connect with my emotions. That’s why sometimes I use the term “Colours reflects my emotions” I choose colours well because, to be honest, I’m not a straightforward kind of person. I’m not self-explanatory.

But, I don’t choose those colours randomly. They have meanings (according to me anyways) These are the colours that I primarily used:

1. Blue → Feeling Blue → this colour represents sadness, coldness, gloom, loneliness, miserable, depressed, rejected, sorrowful, unwelcome, melancholy. I use this colour often (sad people like colours that represent sadness)
   
2. Yellow → Feeling Happy → this colour represents happiness, fluffiness, dreamy, cheerful, imaginative, content, ecstatic, “on cloud nine”, euphoric (not always).
   
3. Red → Feeling Rage → this colour represents anger, hate, rage, infuriated, outraged, annoyed and mad.

Those are the primary colours that when combined, causing/ creating more colours:

1. Green → Feeling Blue and Happy (Yellow) → this colour represents peacefulness. Like, it’s between sad and happy. Static kind of way.
   
2. Purple → Feeling Blue and Rage (Red) → this colour represents sadness, horror, gloom, loneliness, coldness, anger, hate.
   
3. Orange → Feeling Happy (Yellow) and Rage (Red) → mostly this colour represents cheerfulness and give that warmth or a warm feeling to an artwork.

Sometimes two colours can represent themselves well, without the other colours, because they’re self-explanatory. But, there are this controversy about whether they’re colours or not. They’re black and white, the straightforward colours.

• Black : it signifies sadness, loneliness, gloom, miserable, depression, horror, afraid, danger, or maybe just that feeling when you feel trapped in a underground place, that is so dark and unusual.
  
• White: it signifies the opposite things that black implies. White is more peaceful, angelic, sublime, heavenly, magnificent, graceful, poise.

Well, they are all my palette when I’m expressing myself. I combine all of them when I’m in turmoil or my emotions got mixed up, and I’m confuse about what should I feel.

This kind of expression works for me. I like this kind of way to be myself and in the same time, I cheer myself up.

Tell me, who want to keep their feelings so deep inside and never let it go?

- Keshia